The nature of my ambition took shape
I hired myself to make this movie.
But hiring yourself has nothing to do with employment and everything to do with resourcefulness, enterprise, autonomy and agency.
It’s about accepting that you have to make work for yourself, work that nobody ask you to make. It’s about building enough capital so you can subsidize your own initiatives, both emotionally and financially. And it’s about busting through the walls of permission, meaning, the mental constructs of notenoughness, and acting on your dreams with open eyes.
The hard part is, ambition grosses some people out. When you hire yourself, others might feel disenfranchised by your desire. Because they have no incentive to see you change. They would rather you remain frozen in the position they met you in.
It’s the strangest thing. Not everybody wants you to be successful. In fact, some people are just waiting around, excitedly, for you to fail.
And so, it’s your responsibility to keep moving the story forward.
Are you giving people ammunition to shoot down your ambition?